The Baby

I saw beggars outside of the office. Actually , the entire family outside. One morning, the husband kept on pouring some water on the forehead to give the baby a bath. It was such a disheartening site of a couple trying to bring with them a baby in an open and very polluted air of divisoria. It simply breaks my heart to see such a baby not being given the full care just like regular babies taken cared of at home ( i saw how my nephews and nieces were given such attention). But the poor baby simply tore my heart to pieces. I just want to cry .....ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh huhuhuhuhu....

Hunger

Hunger is a desire to be filled in particularly with food. But hunger can mean a desire to fill up the ego. In my not so remote past, i wanted to excel to get the attention of my family. When is started working, I wanted to be noticed. But when a certain post to lead was given to me, I said no. You know why? I was one big critique to particular leaders. And so i was afraid that when i lead, i would experience the same.

At first i don't really understand why i see a lot of bouts among leaders and when a new ones comes out, the older ones are threatened.

Actually, i was a victim to a threatened leader and i thought of shunning it off and not giving in to such insecurity. I have a choice as to how i would respond to the situation. I could still choose to improve myself and enjoy my beautiful moments and opportunity to lead:-). The thing is, the more i hide, work and be invisible, the more i get noticed. Do I have a problem with that ? At first i did. Now no more. I just have to get the job done and put in as much love as i can...

work...work...love..love... ( sa tinuod lang ga labad ako ulo sa ila oi...hahay...but pasagdan ko na lang...mas maayo i ampo ang mga katugulangan hahahahhaha)

Competitions vs Personal Growth and Joy

Someone told me last week "you are a strong competitor to them". I was like "ouch"...what happened? I mean to some of these people. Actually, someone from the previous workplace happened to utter those words and we were both laughing at it.

For the past years, i strove not to give in to competitions but pushed myself to improve my crafts and the person that i am. Sometimes i feel threatened when i see some strong personalities or someone displaying great skills, capacities and the potential to become someone in the organization. But the more i focused on them, the more i forgot about my capacities and improving myself. I was never happy with the later. I get to loose my balance if i give in to competitions.

Though i focus on improving myself, i still strive to detach from myself and ego so that i would experience the joy of it all...:-)

Consumed but not...

I find the title of this blog ironical..."consumed but not"...this month is like a horse riding month ...in all aspects...in hurry with a lot of things ...from work to personal life. And so when i got sick the other week and lost my golden voice hahahhahha, i realize silence has to come in...letting go and delegating were the last recourse...so deeply consumed but realized that i should not be...there are much better and more essential things in life than being to do...so what i did, i allowed myself to be absent, engaged in spending time with loved ones and of course my lovi doggies tobby and now the new one Chacha hahahhahaha over populated house talaga...


Conclusion : it is just so good to let go..........

Loving

"...loving in quite absolute final way..."...i only know of one final way of loving...the example of Jesus dying on the cross...dying for someone you love...this i find so difficult but possible...He did it and so by His grace I believe I can...

Forgiveness

i heard Him saying so loud and clear...i heard His forgiveness and when i hear Him doing that, my heart can't just give what He gave...Him being so generous with that makes me do the same. Thank you Father...:-)

The Unique DANG

When you’re just like everybody else, you’ve nothing to offer other than your conformity. - Dr. Wayne Dyer...

The statement above by Dr. Dyer led me to this writing that say... The unique child inside Glenda named dang has a lot to offer. She just sank in self pity as she was always compared with her siblings when she was a kid. Surprises of all, she began to come out during those years in college when she had all the strength to pursue what she wanted like taking up Psychology, moved up to masters, dressed up unlike the others (swift and mild style that spoke of grace), pursued singing (not really careered heheh) in college, danced so well, started to design modules and gave talks in her Catholic Christian community and many more...

As she slowly came out from herself, she just became so vibrant with life...she likes to laugh, giggle. She is soo funny and so spontaneous with jokes. She like to animate. And she has her unique way of praying such visualizing Jesus and the Father (heaven is visualized as a playground and where she can simply hop on teh Father's huge bed or sleep at His feet or threw stones at the heavens or bite her angel's wings...chillax folks...imagination lang:-)).

Though she likes to talk, she likes to listen, too. She cries when she feels like or when listening with sad stories shared by anyone (actually when she is both happy and sad...she cries heheh odd ha).

And i tell you she feels a lot and has strong intuition with how others' feel. She is so sensitive and can read feelings written on the face (that's why she can easily respond when she sees pain...in the eyes of anyone).

She can fashion and refashion different encounters. She can calm down an angry soul...simply because she listens and accepts without questions. And, she is so crazy in love and humbly embraces the need to learn more in this aspect.

Oh so wonderful creature....Beautiful Dang. She is simply splendid, marvelous, awesome...And now she found more of herself through writing, designing and continues to explore her capacities. And instead of pursuing the world's fashion...she found passion...to serve in everything she does.

I would want to declare that I LOVE DANG AND I THANK GOD FOR CREATING HER...HOW WONDERFUL HE IS THAT CREATED HER...I CELEBRATE WITH THE UNIQUE AND BEAUTIFUL LITTLE GIRL...INSIDE...GLENDA:-) AMEN!!!

P.S. GOD must be soooo BEAUTIFUL... Dang is just a glimpse of HIS BEAUTY...OMG hehhe as in Oh My God!!!!!! can i contain Him when i see Him one day?

Despite and Inspite of

This time is like a roller coaster ride. In the past, this one is kind of frightening. This time holds the greatest surprise of all. I believe i got God's strength to push through despite and inspite of. I still continue to thank Him ...Amen.